Cassiopeia
a chapbook
Bobby Larson
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Table of Contents
Preface
Again
Beatitude
Glow Worms
Driver of the Screw
Elegant Starfish
Dedication
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Preface
Cassiopeia is a constellation of five stars, one of the 88 modern constellations today. This Cassiopeia is my first chapbook, a collection of five poems. Cassiopeia, for whom the constellation is named, was a queen in Greek mythology, punished for boasting about her unrivaled beauty. These poems consider both beauty and vanity in their text. They also appear in the order in which the stars are named (alpha, beta, gamma, delta, epsilon), so: “Again,” “Beatitude,” “Glow Worms,” “Driver of the Screw,” and “Elegant Starfish.” Thank you for reading, and I hope you enjoy it.
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Again
how beautiful the earth from above
said the astronomer’s dove
as they cackled in their castle
as the cat slept in the corner
and I couldn’t stop from laughing
as they theorized and they thought
and as I struggled to string my mandolin
in my dream again
as I awoke
a mellifluous sound and a magnificent smell
your laughter and the latkes
and then a kiss and a laugh
the room was a rippling blur
not quite green and not quite gray
I played Joni and you jumped
a mouse had made its way
into our kitchen
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Beatitude
blessed be the meek, the shy
the quiet, passive ones
the ones wearing masks each day
the ones with fear and
indecision in their hearts
blessed be the silent
mouths stuffed with clay
admiring birds and flowers
the tall, awkward ones
like ibises and echinacea
blessed be the listeners
of melodious noise
who find pattern in the purposeless
beauty in the broken
and revelation in the rhythms
of the awkward and unseen
blessed be the awkward
the bamboo shoots
and leggy sprouts among us
tender and warm
yet hidden and unheard
blessed be the forests
of ideas written in a furious scrawl
unshared in
secret books of poetry and prose
locked diaries masked
by mattresses and moody responses
blessed be the twisted
laughing darkly in the void
at drama and disaster
in our everyday lives
and all that fades
into nothingness
blessed be the dead
suffocated by pain
victims of a society
that did not care or listen
or who didn’t feel like
they were full of wonder
in their idiosyncrasies
in a world unfair
blessed be the angels
who reached out and touched us
who gave us our true names
who wanted to remove
the masks we had made
and see the bumps
the bites
and the bruises
of an uncaring unfeeling
and non-understanding world
blessed be all who read
and listen
and show kindness
and understand
and inspire
and shelter
and comfort
and love us unconditionally
and write
and paint
and sing
and dance
and make beauty
and appreciate it
in the absurd world
whirling around the sun
that we call home
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Glow Worms
come into the night with me
tread quietly
and you can hear the voices
they say we are like glow worms
illuminating the path
but where?
where does it start?
and where does it end my darling?
where does it lead to?
where does it come from?
all we know
is that we illuminate it
us
with our wild hair
six feet apart
wishing we could kiss
and hold hands
we are like floating lamps
in the soft spring evening
are we the start and end?
two cairns in the moor?
do we illuminate
the path between us?
my path to you was miles long
and nothing at all
and what of paths to others?
are they like glow worms too?
but for now
it’s just you and me
illuminating the darkness
between us
with our words
and our laughter
this is our reality
Ecclesiastes said
that all is vanity
that you and I
are nothing new
under the sun
but under the moon
we are fresh
so
come with me
and we will hear the voices
that say we are like glow worms
illuminating the path together
the path to our future
to future homes
jokes and poems
to future love and laughter
to future arguments and tears
our pathway through the years
times to weep and to laugh
times to reap and to sow
we will cease to remember
and others will cease to remember us
so let’s travel the path together my love
into the shape-shifting future we grow
let’s combine powers as glow worms
and show more of where both of us can go
—
Driver of the Screw
can you hear me
through all that clatter?
what is the matter
with all the sounds I made?
what do you
and the driver of the screw
have in common?
can you hear me
with that mask on?
through my mask
made of paper plates,
tape, paint, and glue?
is the world just
masks all the way down?
will you reveal yourself?
will I?
am I just a tool
and you a fool?
or vice versa?
are you just a fool
with a tool?
can you see
through the ruins in me?
I can see
through rain
and wind and snow
can you see me through your mask?
are the eyes just sequins?
I can’t tell
are you the maker of the machine?
or just the operator?
or am I?
the difference between
the driver of the screw
and you
is that it is just a tool
and you are a fool
but one that can see
and think and feel
you are certainly not a screw
and neither am I
we
are not bits of metal
but a mass of sinews and complaints
and tears and bones
cacophonies of laughter
blood and skin
so, will you play with me?
take your mask off
reveal yourself
—
Elegant Starfish
you drew
an elegant starfish
with just a few sweeping strokes
it made me weep with joy
the elegant starfish
in a sea of Formica and linoleum
in a sea of IKEA manual speaking
and calligraphic boredom
in a sea of tile floors
and gnomic decor
we were
cypress floors white walls and
worn-in books and a forest of plants
art clocks and New Yorker magazines
cute little candles and a stash of
greeting cards for just-in-case
in a sea of double-layered polos
baggy jeans
sweatpants
spaghetti straps
studded belts
khaki and graphic tees
we were
cardigans that smelled like tea
musty flannel and slim jeans
and foliage shirts
sleek black slacks
and Seattle sweaters
crystal jewelry and high tops
in a sea of self-doubt
you would be better if
you would suck less if
you would be cooler if
you would be wiser if
you would be manlier if
we were
I am good enough
I am wise enough
I am strong enough
I am cool enough
I am beautiful enough
I am kind enough
I am enough
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Dedication
Thank you astronomy. Thank you dreams. Thank you ex. Thank you laughter. Thank you Joni Mitchell. Thank you Beatitudes. Thank you quiet, shy, mysterious, creative, loving people of the world. Thank you Vashti Bunyan. Fuck you COVID-19. Thank you Ecclesiastes. Thank you future. Thank you Fiona Apple. Thank you noise. Thank you masks. Thank you screwdrivers. Thank you this mortal body. Thank you art. Thank you ugly things. Thank you beautiful things. Thank you self-esteem. Thank you Joanna Newsom. Thank you Alanis Morissette. Thank you especially to Fio. Thank you friends, family, ex (again), and anyone who has supported my poetry and art. Thank you all..
-Bobby